Retraced Footsteps
Goa Revisited (Part 1)
It was a long flight over two oceans and three continents.
The plane circled once around the airport, made a smooth landing and finally
came to a halt. The air outside was distinct, but slightly humid for the time
of year. The airport building had changed quite a bit since his last visit. Felicio’s
holiday in Goa was about to begin.
The taxi took on the sweeping curves along the river bank. As
they were about to turn homeward to the north at the T-junction at the base of the
hillock Felicio saw the famous bridge looming over the Zuari river. The barges
transporting the iron-ore slowly maneuvering their way under the bridge brought
to mind a familiar sight of the past that had not changed.
The breeze hit his face through the open window of the taxi bringing
some relief from the heat of the afternoon sun. Scooters were plying about almost
everywhere. It seemed that everybody on wheels wanted to overtake Felicio’s
hired taxi. Everyone seemed to be in a rush. “Who said we were susegad?” he
mused to himself, “or could it be the scooter riders were not Goenkar?” he wondered.
Along the way the friendly cab driver casually gave Felicio a
news brief first at state level, and then in a subdued tone a weather forecast followed
by a general look at the prevailing situation of the land. As the taxi slowly
came to a halt Felicio was surprised that he was home earlier than he had
expected. He was quick to realize that it was due to the fact that new bridges were
now built where none existed before, and so he did not have to wait at the
ferry crossings, although he was rather perturbed to hear from the driver that
the pride and landmark bridge over the river Zuari has some new problems.
The drive home was an enjoyable and also quite an experience.
Apartment buildings now dotted the entire landscape. Felicio was surprised to
see the pace of construction going on in places where in the past rice crops
were cultivated. Huge factories and their smoke stacks emerged high in the
distance north-east of the Zuari.
Felicio’s village was bustling with great activity. It
appeared to have undergone a metamorphosis. The footpath that ran beside Felicio’s
house had now become a street and the once narrow lane in front had become a
major thoroughfare. At first sight everything around seemed strange to him. He would
somehow try to handle this unexpected situation and take the change in stride gradually,
he thought.
His good old neighbour and childhood friend, Manu, waved out
from the balcao of his house across the street. He hollered a warm and
enthusiastic welcome over the din of traffic. Felicio was glad to see that Manu
had not altered the façade of his house. Manu had now retired from his job as
the compositor at the printing press in the city after a service of 35 years.
The afternoon swiftly transformed into evening. The road in
front of Felicio’s house was full of hustle and bustle. It seemed as if it had now
been converted into a major highway by a popular vote. Forty years ago this was
a footpath, then a convenient road, now a highway. Felicio remembered how he
wrote application after application to the Panchayat for the necessity of a
road. Should he write now ask for the old footpath back, he thought. People
were speeding home from work on scooters. Bus drivers drove with one hand on
the steering-wheel and the other constantly on the air-horns. The change was quite
overwhelming.
As it had been habitual during Felicio’s previous vacations,
he decided to go around the village and visit his neighbours. This, he remembered,
was something he had done from the time of his college days in Bombay. In the month of April he would travel
to Goa by ship to spend his summer holidays. Visiting neighbours had been a
courtesy and a habit since the days of his teens. Also he felt he should not let
them presume that he has forgotten them.
His first visit was to the house of his closest friendly
neighbours to find out how they were doing. Tia Anna hugged him and said she
was now old, almost in her late 70’s, and lived alone. He remembered he had
seen her upright long ago, but now she appeared frail and hunched. Her son worked
in the Arabian Gulf. Felicio’s aunt slept over
at her house since she had not been keeping too well lately.
While he was away from home he had often thought about Titi
Joao. As a young lad Felicio and other boys in the village gathered around in
the balcao of his house and attentively
listened to the lengthy and intriguing stories he related during the evenings
soon after Angelus prayers. His passing away saddened him.
Paulo Titi had passed away too. Aunt Maria had survived him.
Her relatives were now living with her. As a child Felicio had played badminton
in front their house. In the beginning the boys used a rope tied between two
coconut trees. Later Paulo Titi had provided the village boys a real net, strong
bamboo poles and powdered chalk to mark the boundaries. Paulo had organized
village tournaments for them, and being a keen football player himself he had
encouraged and given them tips on the fine art of the game.
Retraced Footsteps (Part 2)
The house located on the perimeter of the village had
undergone a major change. It was now a modern house with a terrace. But sadly Felicio
could not find the old owners there. Apparently some people who did not speak
Konkani now had now occupied it. A few houses had somehow managed to keep up
and maintain the old rustic pattern.
The next day, rising early in the morning, Felicio decided
to take a stroll on the old path leading to the fields that he along with other
boys walked on their to school . He tried to retrace the trail through the vast
expanse of the fields. He was in disbelief to find that it was overgrown with
wild plants and weeds. It appeared to be seldom used. Then as he was returning
home he was pleasantly surprised at a remarkable revelation - to see a bus passing
in front of his house that had “ST. ANTHONY’S HIGH SCHOOL, MONTE DE GUIRIM”, sign-written
in bold blue letters on its side, picking up the students. That explained the
overgrown weeds! No wonder, he thought, he could not find the old path to school!
One of the great experiences in attempting to relive the
past was going to buy groceries from the market in the nearby town. One of Felicio’s
neighbours was good enough to acquire a scooter for him. It took him nearly a
week to muster the courage to venture on the street, another week to try and
remember to keep to the left side of the road and join the rest in the general
approach, method and style of driving, manner of honking, maneuvering, braking
and turning either left or right. Since he could not fight them he decided to
join them.
In equally trying circumstances, it took him another couple
of weeks to gather enough nerve in getting behind the steering wheel of a car
and learn the peculiar art and special technique to get around in the busy
town. He went to the bazaar everyday and bought fresh fish and vegetables and
drank Kingfisher beer. He visited his relatives and friends, far and near. He
went to the beach with his new friends and drank some more Kingfisher beer.
Getting across to the other side of the road in the market
town was quite a feat - an accomplishment unlike the old days. He had to be very
careful. Motor-cycles, rickshaws, buses and trucks whizzed by every second and
in all directions. It seemed as if it was a free for all. After waiting for
nearly five minutes to find a clearance between speeding trucks, buses, private
cars and motor-cyclists he finally managed to cross the street. He felt it was
indeed a major achievement. This happened everyday. And on the many occasions
he accomplished this feat, he thought he had triumphed, glad that he had
emerged as a victor, thankful to be alive to tell the tale on the other side.
In the first week of December he celebrated the Feast of St.
Francis Xavier. People flocked to Old Goa throughout the month of December and
then until the first week of January. Felicio managed to squeeze a suitable day
one early morning. Rising up much before dawn he made a trip to Old Goa and unbelievably
was home for breakfast by 8 am.
Combined with the ongoing festivities of IFFI, people
flocked to the city, Panjim. On his visit to this beautiful city he had an
impression that somehow some things had been left unfinished – pavements stones
were stacked up in piles in several places. Government buildings, the
balustrade along the river-side promenade and lamp posts were carrying a fresh
coat of paint.
Then it was Carnival – the beautiful floats made their
rounds in the major cities – while tourists and Felicio walked around some
unfinished pavements.
There was a slight lull in gaiety during Lent followed by
some in sobriety, moderation and solemnity in the villages. And by Easter it
was time for us to join in the festivities of Shigmo.
In the old days the market
place in Mapusa was busy only on the day it is best known for – the famous ‘Friday
Bazaar’ day. But now every day seemed like a Friday.
After circling around for about 15 minutes he eventually
found a parking spot where he could barely nudge in between two scooters,
realizing that he had made a wise decision in not using his car to get there. Another major accomplishment, he thought.
There were hawkers everywhere – at the entrance to the market
and on the pavements too. The walkways were full of a huge new variety of
merchandise. Half-clad white tourists with a local in tow roamed around the crowded
bazaar. Women in mini-skirts and big fat sweating men in shorts with huge bare
bellies wandered amidst local folks.
Retraced Footsteps (Part 3)
Felicio continued his daily visits to the bazaar to buy fresh fish and vegetables and drank more Kingfisher beer at his favourite restaurant in the town. He visited his relatives and friends, far and near who had invited him for their village feasts. He went to the beach with his few old friends and made some new ones.
Lenten services brought back memories of childhood. Taking
part in the solemn procession winding its way around the hill-side and around
the perimeter of the cemetery with life-size statues of Christ carrying the
Cross, and hearing the touching notes and words of the motets sung in Konkani sent a chill up his spine. In enacting the
crucifixion elders guided the young men who climbed up on the ladders to
retrieve the “body of Christ” while the haunting rattle of the ‘matraas’ echoed through the church.
After the church services, Felicio, thinking about his
childhood glanced around casually if he could find familiar faces of his
younger days. Luckily spotted a few and met them after the services. He was
conscious of the thought that he must have appeared a little older just like
they did to him, though none of them made any comment. Perhaps each one could
notice the old missing sparkle in the other. Thoughts of younger days sent a
lump up his throat. He made his way home on the scooter thinking about the
times when he had covered the same distance on foot. However better times in
later years had followed when his father had bought him his first bicycle.
Of course, none of Felicio’s visits to Goa
would be complete without visiting his Alma Mater, situated atop the hill and
known as “Monte de Guirim”. This time, a guided tour of the new building
followed a long conversation with the Principal and the Headmaster of the
school. The new purpose-built wing, which features a novel sky-light, broad
corridors and stair-well, is actually built on the very same spot where a humble
but massive shed first stood in the early sixties. Felicio seemed to drift far
away in his thoughts taking him back in time, remembering his class in that
shed, when the Headmaster who was once a pupil in that same school startled
Felicio echoing his own sentiments when he said: “Remember the old days?” “Oh,
yes,” Felicio replied, “I still remember those were the days when during a
heavy downpour in the monsoon the students would have had to shift to a safer place
to avoid the drops of rain ruining their study books”.
Felicio then paid a quick visit to the refectory, and while
passing through the kitchen he was pleasantly surprised to see a medium-duty
winch on an overhead I-beam track that is now used to lift the huge cauldrons
of food from the cooking stoves. Innovative! Before his departure Felicio
decided to pace up to the eastern corner of the terrace just below the
refectory and next to the garage where once the famed “Land-Rover” stayed
parked. But something was missing. It was the mango tree.
“Just let me cast one last glimpse south-east towards the beautiful
and pristine landscape of fields and green hills of Socorro, Porvorim and
Sangolda before I depart” a thought that he heard himself whisper as he
gradually panned his head like a movie camera. And he took it all in! The green
watermelon and vegetable patches in the distance lay sprawled along the twin roads
that led to the hilly slopes of Sangolda. The view had not changed much. “May
it always remain so and not turn into a concrete jungle”, he prayed.
Tony Felix Fernandes
Author: Goa – Memories of
My Homeland
